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Confessions of an ADHD-er: The Truth Behind The Brain Disorder

“Over-analyzing” sometimes ruins everything. Your thoughts aren’t coherent, you do random things according to your senses, you’re irritably overthinking things out of impulsivity, and even become moody about some things normal people don’t. What makes it even more depressing is that the thing itself gives everyone an impression of “it” being a mental incapacity. Truthfully, it isn’t. It’s one product of ADHD.

According to the National Institute of Mental Health, Attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder or ADHD is a brain disorder marked by an ongoing pattern of inattention and/or hyperactivity-impulsivity that interferes with functioning or development. It has three signs and symptoms that make up for it which are inattention, hyperactivity, and impulsivity.

I have ADHD and it was only in October 2015 when I found out and confirmed I was an ADHD-er. I can always remember how kids at my former hometown hate to play with me because I was super hyperactive, always intending to ‘destroy’ things I ‘thought’ should be destroyed, impulsively running to and fro; away from my nannies, even my dad (my father would always compare me to a remote-controlled doll that once put on the ground, would automatically run as fast as she could away from him).

This caused me having minimal to no friends in childhood, thinking nobody liked me because there was something ‘wrong’ with me.

It was just recently when I figured, it’s all about my brain disorder.


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ADHD possesses three multi-factors that creates its overall functionality. Inattention, for one, means a person wanders off task, lacks persistence, has difficulty sustaining focus, and is disorganized. These problems are not due to defiance or lack of comprehension.

Several findings state that, if an ADHD-er appears irrationally happy-go-lucky, it most of the time makes his hyperactivity. This is when the person seems to move about constantly, including situations in which it is not appropriate when it is not appropriate. They also excessively fidgets, taps, or talks. In adults, it may be extreme restlessness or wearing others out with their activity. Another manifestation and proof that one has is his impulsivity.

Impulsivity is when a person makes hasty actions that occur at the moment without first thinking about them and that may have a high potential for harm, or a desire for immediate rewards or inability to delay gratification. An impulsive person may be socially intrusive and excessively interrupt others or make important decisions without considering the long-term consequences.

Regardless of the aforementioned facts I wrote here about having ADHD on the downside, the cons would always have its pros and its perks. For instance, having ADHD means your brain functions faster unlike the ordinary. When you feel so slow sometimes, that is because you are over-analyzing things based on the facts you know, and your brain is functioning too well that even a dumb joke would play as if it was meant to be analyzed. This happens all the time because you will always stay rational about the things around you.

Aside from having a Virgo rising, my ADHD makes me the person who analyzes a lot and has capitalized on it to help people with their massive essays, even debate speeches, and academic paper writing. I don’t know, but this also made me love reading and researching. Since I’m also passionate about writing, I leveraged this part of me that eventually turned out to be a so-called, ‘business‘ in college. ?

Insane, right? I know. ?

The undeniable power of ADHD also includes out-of-the-box thinking, humor, drive, and the passion that it brings to the ADHD-er. Moreover, people who have ADHD tend to have “hyperfocus” which means they focus very intently on things that do interest them, and at times, the focus is so strong that they become oblivious to the world around them.

There’s nothing inherently harmful about hyperfocus, so to speak. In fact, it can be an asset. Some ADHD-ers, for example, are able to channel their focus on something productive, such as a school or work-related activity. Others allow themselves to hyperfocus on something as a reward for completing a dull but important task. Ultimately, the best way to deal with hyperfocus is not to fight it but to harness it.

“If school or work can be made stimulating, it will grab focus in the same way,” says Kathleen Nadeau Ph.D., a psychologist in Silver Spring, Maryland and the author of ADD-Friendly Ways to Organize Your Life.

Personally, when I get too pumped about doing something I’m passionate about, I actually never cared about having less sleep, or no sleep at all. That’s when my ADHD comes striking me. It’s always making me extra hardworking, especially when I love doing what I do. However, if I’m less interested of what I’m doing, I end up procrastinating… because I have no interest in making them happen at all!

… except when I’m really obliged to.

Hey, this led me to do a few, awesome things in life at an early age of 18 and counting! I was able to do them thinking I never would in a thousand years. Not being a braggart or anything, I was just thinking about being passionate about my craft, excelling in it and, and slowly improving it. I was able to do that during my early teenage years and I’m still hung up on that up to this day! I just feel like it was a miracle. ?? You can read this on my Autobiography part of my blog here. The password is thehobbyistpost96.

People with ADHD, according to one account, tend to have many creative talents (usually underdeveloped until the diagnosis is made) and a highly original, out-of-the-box way of thinking. As highly intuitive people with a special “feel” for life, they can possess an almost “sixth sense” that lets them see straight to the heart of a matter instead of having to think it through methodically. Since impulsivity is one of the core symptoms of ADHD, it stands to reason that people with ADHD are more creative than their non-ADHD counterparts. And according to Nadeau,

“Many scientists, writers, and artists with ADHD have had very successful careers, in large part because of their ability to focus on what they’re doing for hours on end.”

So don’t be bothered or “alarmed” if you think you also possess the disorder. This is also the reason why you’re special.

This is why an ADHD-ers’ passion is located at the heart of their brains. The perks of this disorder are the “genius” behind where ADHD-ers’ masterpieces come from. Some people I know are not ashamed of it, so don’t you ever do either. Be happy about it.

This is not a spin control nor is it an effort to paint a rosy picture of the potentially disabling side of ADHD, though. Prisons, drug rehab centers, unemployment lines, divorce courts are full of people with undiagnosed, untreated ADHD. But there is also a “gifted” side to ADHD that packs the power to propel the child or adult who has it to success, even greatness. It’s all about tapping into the “mirror traits” of the negative symptoms associated with ADHD, which can become amazing assets.